Another Life

Many years ago in another life
Lived by another me
In a town whose name I can't remember
I had dreams
I saw success through un-jaded eyes
Heard the bells of accolades with unclogged ears
A writer, a singer, a psychologist
Archaeologist, or at the worst, life in a cube with a six-figure salary
A house by late twenties, a dog, horse and
Contacts, to rid me of the memories of a four-eyed youth
Travel and responsible dealings
Donations to charity that I could afford
Now --
A failed experiment, the tests marked with bloody slashes
Rivers of tears that don't release but drown me and sting me with their salts
Anchors - yes- there are three but frustrated anchors they must be
I know life is a work-in-progress, a painting with layers we can't even see
But mine can't decide why it looks like Picasso when the blueprint was for Norman Rockwell

Unfamiliar Territory

Walking down an unfamiliar road
Carrying a familiar load
Mouth bitter with the taste of regret
Nothing makes me forget

Wandering this hostile place
Holding out a hand in case
Someone else might walk by
I can't remember why

What am I still doing here
In a land so full of fear?
No one sees the tear I cry
And a hollow train keeps going by

When life is lived in lowest gear
And noone friendly is even near
To listen to my frantic lies
That hollow train just bleats goodbye

If leaving was within my power
I'd dismantle the streets hour by hour
I'd vaporize the dirt with my hand
If only someone could understand
The way this place has invaded me
Its ugliness has jaded me

It's hard to wake up in the morning
Clad in the dreary sweater of mourning
Open your eyes and see each day is the same
Piece by piece you're losing the game

The forecast here is always the same
Partly cloudy with a chance of pain
Nothing to do nothing to see
Is this day-to-day slumber all life will be?

The Alpha and Omega (Poem)

Where at last I wandered
Safest in your shadow
Stunned into silence by the beauty of your words
You call to me, purely to connect me
To all that makes us holy
Echoes of a joy I cannot begin to name

You are Alpha you are Omega
The one and only oneness which I seek
You are starlight you are moonlight
You are famine you are feast

The Tree of Ceridwyn

I see her, strong brown branches that stay straight in the wind
Giving me life energy, healing my heart so frozen
She is my tree, my support, my dryad
Green leaves like raindrops fall all around me
As I weep and curl myself into her trunk
She embraces me, flowing with calm quiet power
I am safe

Ode to a Lost Soulmate

A lost fairytale
Soulmates separated by so much time
I loved you as only I could
With sweet abandon, purest of the pure
With stars showering me I offered
My heart to your heaven
Never afraid of the future
All eyes and mouth, smile to power 1,000 suns
Bodies sang in ancient karma sutra rhythms
The dream was torn apart
Space between the bodies grew and smothered
Fifteen to Twenty Twenty to now---
I no longer harbor a betrayed belief
That we will find our way back to the story
Back to the antideluvian harmony
When we danced beside the faeries in the wood