I Can’t Stay

I can’t stay
I can’t remain in a state of Indecision
In the place of fear that you call home
You’re content with your glitterati life
Living in a box, playing theatre whore
You need the audience
An artificial love to pump your ego
Like a hissing bicycle tire
So fragile but you pretend you’re the wall
Around the fortress, the dragon
That guards the castle
Who are you these days? You play-act
Like a pro because that’s what you are-
Thirty years of strutting, living as
A false entity your main career
I can’t stay
You’ve left no room for the dreamer to dream
And you’ve left no unlocked door
For the past to seep through
I’m not a poison gas my friend
But I can’t play the part of a fan
It’s alien to me and unrelenting revulsion
Is the coat that I wear
Bracing myself for the frost in your elitist eye
I can’t stay
Pauper to your prince
You can’t wake up and see the plan
That’s written by the Maker
Who built all the toys in the boxes
The one who sought to slam us together
Atoms that fight for space in a vacuum
I can’t stay
Your brightness blinds me to my sensibilities
And I find the strength to exit stage left
Away from the demons that gleefully consume you